it was pain, sunny days and rain.

There’s bombs going off
While a mother sets the table
There’s a child being born
In a world of such double edged beauty
And here I sit while the world claws at my heart
Here I break over the flaws of our race
Here I feel the earth spin
As I breathe for something
Yearn for something more than all of this

Yet in the midst of the tragedy
The chaos
The fury
I feel the grounded weight of Your grace
I feel the calm breeze at the memory of Your presence
And despite the reality of our inadequacy
You can look deep into my face
And see it all, and feel only love...

i wrote this during the summer of 2008. it was the worst few months of my life, but i still managed to find some hope in a few places... here is a picture of my girlfriends and i at my baptism the summer i turned 14 when everything was still so raw and heart breakingly beautiful... :)